Thursday, January 29, 2009


a big office activity's coming up, and this is how i get every time a lot of tasks are assigned to me:

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good thing i have saturdays to look forward to.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

portraits 2003

when i first ventured into photography (reading tips and how-to's from the intarwebs), i used my lolo's canon ftql. now, i don't get to use it anymore, because i've uh, 'shifted' my attention to my other film cameras. one of these days i'll take it out on a trip again.

here are shots i took in 2003 (if i am not mistaken, and i really hope not) using the camera, during a family get-together with the santiagos. film used was kodak max 400 (at that time, yun ang meron sa bahay).

thanks susa, for thinking i'm good with cameras. i try. :)
the photos have been cropped. i think i did that because we made a slideshow or something. oh well. nostalgia.

masamang magutom

dahil nagkaka-ganito ang usapan.

jonar sabilano (1/27/2009 11:28:18 AM): mustasa?
laurie (1/27/2009 11:28:26 AM): kamatis naman.
jonar sabilano (1/27/2009 11:28:40 AM): ah. patola.
laurie (1/27/2009 11:28:43 AM): naging medyo upo lang kanina.
jonar sabilano (1/27/2009 11:28:44 AM): bwahaha.
jonar sabilano (1/27/2009 11:28:56 AM): hindi naman talong?
laurie (1/27/2009 11:29:10 AM): ah, hindi na. medyo ampalaya na ngayon. ikaw?
jonar sabilano (1/27/2009 11:29:27 AM): heto, papipi-pino lang.
jonar sabilano (1/27/2009 11:29:38 AM): papipi-pipino
laurie (1/27/2009 11:29:54 AM): ay, beri gud yan. hindi ka naman kinakalabasa ng sitaw mo diyan?
jonar sabilano (1/27/2009 11:30:14 AM): di naman masyado. patani nga siya ngayon e.
laurie (1/27/2009 11:30:40 AM): bwahahaha. ma-pechay nga.
jonar sabilano (1/27/2009 11:31:04 AM): bwahaha. di naman, repolyo lang.
laurie (1/27/2009 11:31:52 AM): ga-sibuyas ang labanos ko ngayon. kainis.
jonar sabilano (1/27/2009 11:32:20 AM): ay ganun? pero at least hindi mala-bawang.
laurie (1/27/2009 11:32:40 AM): oo nga. buti na lang. pero mamaya madami pa kong kundol! huhuhu!
jonar sabilano (1/27/2009 11:33:39 AM): awwwww. idaan mo na lang sa singkamas at sigarilyas.
laurie (1/27/2009 11:33:53 AM): tama. madami namang mani sa mundo.
laurie (1/27/2009 11:34:13 AM): salamat sa malunggay ha.
jonar sabilano (1/27/2009 11:34:34 AM): walang anuman. ipagpatuloy lang ang pagpapaka-sayote diyan.
laurie (1/27/2009 11:37:35 AM): naubusan na ako ng gulay
jonar sabilano (1/27/2009 11:37:47 AM): hahahaha
jonar sabilano (1/27/2009 11:38:07 AM): mag-saluyot ka na lang. puwede ring mag-alugbati kapag nagsawa ka na.

maawa na kayo. tumatanggap kami ng kangguds, instant mami, at tuyong may champorado.

Friday, January 23, 2009

i, narcissistic researcher,

do hereby solemnly swear to stop googling myself.

(click the images for a better view)

"orya si greek for sausage." yum. oh, and a greek comedy! now that's appropriate. that's nice, a happy sausage. would you like brats with that?

more antiseptic: orya also means peace, and is a language of indonesia.

Thursday, January 22, 2009


okay, so wednesday turned into thursday when i got my photos last night. hmm. i did a very lauren-like overexposure with the catcam, which disappointed me to bits (and i'll never get any peace if i don't write it out). at least, as with every mistake, i learned. as for reddd, he is a darling (it's a he, i've decided), and loves me back. i'll post more photos in my multiply in a while, but for now:

reddd's very first shot, with the square mask and solid gold color negs. the jars in the living room at home, beside which is my workplace (the whitish light is from my desklamp). i haven't gotten used to the focusing, of course (excuses, hehehe).

susa in sigwada, during the kontra-kontra opening, reading my book. blurred (though she did as i said and stood still) and near to overexposure. again.

fuzzy giving me a stinging look, and laundry hanging out to dry. reddd again, but without any mask, so the sprockets show. i love the vintage-y tint, helped along no doubt by the fuji sensia slides.

at this resto in tomas morato i treated myself to one night after getting slides from another lomomanila member. price-y place, frequented by personalities. i got to write here. hahaha. i think this is the sharpest photo i took, and the one with the most striking contrast. again, if i hadn't released the shutter this would've been ruined by too much light. buti na lang!

one of the last photos i took with the holga135 before i had it adopted. i used the super-grainy konica centuria. it's originally a landscape photo; i just cropped it to make it look like an album cover*, poking fun (and trying my hand) at well, doing album covers! hehehe.

*back story: ige showed me a belle & sebastian call for submissions for an album cover (for their bbc sessions album), but by the time he saw it, the contest was already closed. awww. i told him we could still make our own, and i think that cheered him up. so i made him this for fun.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

now aren't you cute

i'm waiting for my photos to be delivered.

hopefully they would have something.
i sent four rolls off to the lab:
  • roll 1: the last of the holga135 shots, and multiples using the fisheye
  • roll 2: catcam shots. santa and i are both crossing our fingers. i told him i had this tendency to overexpose. the photos are probably blurred too. oh well, let's just wait and see.
  • roll 3: the 'test roll' from reddd, the blackbird, fly. i used the square mask.
  • roll 4: i am hoping this roll is scanned correctly, with the sprocket holes. slides from reddd, without the masks. if scanned correctly, the holes should turn up. and it's slide film, something you don't really want to go to waste.
i could have sent five, but i haven't finished with the fisheye roll, and i badly wanted to see how things turn out. so there. tomorrow or thursday.

(blabbering--photography jitters)

in other news,

saturday morning i let a very hairy caterpillar in my shorts and sat on it.

saturday night i spent going around the makati-greenbelt area with the oro kids. we went to a magazine launch. had dinner. had coffee. went home.

(one of them magazines has my work for cover art. tell me when you see one, will you?)

Sunday, January 11, 2009

sa aking mga kababata

use 'anxious' in a sentence.

anxious ko ay bago. last pair 'yan!


this morning was miel's first birthday party. it had a prince/princess theme, but since i didn't have the time/seriousness to come up with a costume of some sort, i decided to make do with whatever was available in the house. and so, behold all ye loyal subjects, my coronation:

permit me to properly address you, my loyal subjects, some other time, as i am currently busy with kingdom chores. so far in this princess business i have learned that frog kissing really is messy (heaven knows how many frogs i've lipclapped with already), but it's something i had to do to find out which was a real prince. so far i have failed in this task--some frogs turned into whiny three-year-olds. where the @%!& are you, my prince?

the darn frog just won't croak and say so. shy much?

Friday, January 9, 2009

ang pangalan niya ay reddd

ang aking bagong blackbird, fly. isang tlr-style na camera na gumagamit ng 35mm film, gawa ng superheadz ng japan. susyal!

para makabawi sa gastos, mukhang kailangang maglakad na ako pauwi araw-araw hanggang 2012. oo, mula uste hanggang fairview.

tatanggap na rin pala ako ng donasyong film. kodak, fuji, solid gold, lucky, mitsubishi, agfa...kahit ano pa yan. sige na please. malapit-lapit na rin naman ang bertdey ko.

Thursday, January 8, 2009


my mom woke me up at four this morning.

"diyan ka natulog?"

the sofa fits me perfectly.


i wouldn't be able to continue my sleep on the sofa so i went to our room, oh blissful silence and darkness, and made my way to my bed. carefully moved fuzzy to the foot, who complained and left. sorry fuzzy, my turn on the bed. sleep part two.


tumahimik ka, alarm. pwede akong mag-five minutes ngayon. madaming-madaming five minutes.


text ni mama: "simulan mo na uminom ng antibiotic na nandun sa med jar, ang tagal na ng ubo mo."

'yun pala ang greeting ko kanina sa kanya nung ginising niya ako.


ang bagal ni manong konduktor mangolekta ng bayad. inaantok na ako.


pikit. dilat, parks and wildlife.
pikit. dilat, banawe.
pikit. dilat, rotonda.
pikit. dilat, vicente cruz. okaaaay, gising na talaga.

di na mauulit 'yung dating nakaabot ako sa morayta.


wala akong pasok bukas. ang mang-istorbo ng tulog ko, makakatikim.

dublin, attack!

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Throat cries for justice, wakes up owner

JUN-JUN STREET, Quezon City -- at five in the morning, an impressionable young John Lloyd Cruz fan downs two mugs of warm water, complaining of her Throat, which has been in her body her whole life.

"I didn't get to sleep early na nga because of a raket, I set my alarm at six but I got to sleep at one a.m. pa--and I thought hey, I can't snooze when it alarms at six, because I have a meeting at work at nine, but then I woke up at five--well, actually, I woke up earlier than that, to turn on the fan, because mosquitoes were buzzing around me and I was scratchy all there, I woke up at five because my throat was hurting again, and I couldn't go back to sleep. It was so very annoying, so I got up na and went to the cr to gargle water and blow my nose--I did whatever I thought could ease the terrible pain!

"A few weeks ago I considered such an occurrence as cute and artsy, because when I couldn't go back to sleep because of my throat or my recurred asthma, I would head over to my work area to doodle some stuff for this guy, for Christmas. He's really sweet, and silly, and he lives just over--oh, sorry, where was I? Oh, the cuteness. Really he is. Oh no, wait, okay, yes, I also have asthma--again, because it was gone as I grew up but now it's back. It wakes me up in the early mornings too, when I couldn't breathe and I wheeze like an engine. Kinda like that.

"Anyway, now I can't decide which is worse--the bad throat that tells me it's mucus morning, or the asthma that makes me a noisy breather. I think it's the painful slimy throat--based on experience, the wheezing caused by asthma goes away soon enough, but the throat thing just makes everything else difficult--breathing, swallowing."

When asked about why she thinks her throat bothers her in the early mornings when it's oh-so-good to sleep, the young remarkable John Lloyd fan had this to say:

"I think it's waging revenge on me, after the many dirty things I made it do in the past."

Dirty things, young amazing John Lloyd fan? Can you please elaborate?

"Well," says the magnificent girl with a smile, "I used to have to swallow a lot of sour cream."

That's it. Drown yourself in antibiotic, dear girl. Lots and lots of it.


In other news, an officemate confirmed that yes, the reason why Alfred Vargas' (insert plenty of god-like attributes here) face is on every corner of Quezon City's District II is because he'd be running for councilor come 2010. Apparently he lives nearby, in Fairview. One of these days I'll take down one (okay, maybe a dozen) of Alfred's many merry Christmas greetings and make beddings out of them--'I don't care about you throat; I've got Alfred's nice eye-crinkley smile on my cheek.' Alfred for Councilor! Yey, I said, now I have a reason to vote. Haha. Lame and shallow but hey, different strokes for different folks eh?

Lots and lots of antibiotic.

And probably the Act of Contrition.

Sunday, January 4, 2009

happy new.

so it's back to work, projects, rush hour traffic, ___ office life, back to whatever hell you left when you took the yuletide holidays. for me it's the last three months until my contract ends again, and floating season again. i should really work on that thesis. while working, renew that contract? or should i take a break? but there's no one else who'll take over the job. i should finish that journal. that video documentary. everything else. i'm blabbering. i should seriously think about my thesis; this is the last year to do it. choose. decide. prioritize. good mantra.

time to yank the self away from all those christmasy thoughts. for now at least. santa always comes when you least expect him.

christmas could come again in march, malay natin.